Some reflects for the past two years =)

Its been 2 years since i last blogged, can't really remember why i stop blogging but recently just get to read back all my previous blogs, only to realise that i used to be such a childish and "grey" thinking person...Things changed, for others, life might be bumpy and confuse but im always grateful with what i have, my family, my friends, and god who always been there with me for whatever happens.

Recently, i was struggle with a decision, to either continue my study at ukm or transfer back to ums and start everything all over again as a 1st year. Some might already know that it's for my mum, she's sick and i wish i could just spend more time with her and be there for her through the hard times. It's tough, but after sort of discuss with my family, they think i should continue my study at ukm. And here is the "concentrated" conversation between us:

Mum: The fact that im sick wouldn't changed, so what's the point of wasting another year of
your study?

Dad: You do no help here, just have faith and pray (am i really that useless?) ><

Sis: huh? why?? its there any difference?

and hence, the decision is to continue study at ukm. I actually agree with that, i can see that they're more mature now, and if i keep on insisiting to study at ums, its like im the bragging little kid and they're like:"come on, face the reality, dont be such a little kid~" maybe im just not tough enough, maybe im just over worried, or maybe i miss them too much but by seeing my sister to be so independent and even help out in sending the youngers to tuition and school, and mum who always been so tough even when she's suffering from sickness and side effect from treatment, and dad who's always been supportive and take good care of the whole family, im just so proud of them. In return, i know i should not hesitate anymore, what i could do is study hard and get good results to make them proud of me!

There's always up and downs in life, and the downs is just to make us stronger, for god wants us to realise how sweet is his grace and to know that human is just too fragile while god is the only one we should rely on. From all i experienced, i appreciate life more, to be grateful of breathing in the early morning, to be thankful for every moment of laughter and fun spent with friends and family and i guess that's life. It doesnt meant to be perfect so just live life the fullest everyone =)